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Momentum

Hey, friend, how’s your day?  It really is spring out there, some of the days are still a bit cooler, but on average they’re really quite beautiful.  We still haven’t got to the perfect times yet, warm but before it gets brutal hot, beautiful in the evenings, just a touch of coolness in the early mornings.  You know we’re there when someone says, “Boy, if it could be like this all year…”  You know you’ll have that conversation a few more times before it disappears for a while.  There’s another conversation in the fall, but it’s different.  And this one is coming, but it’s not quite here yet.  Nice to have something to look forward to.  How’ve you been?  Have you been working on anything on your own behalf lately?  Funny how you and I often do all kinds of things that are important to others, but we’ll rarely do something for ourselves.  Yes, I’m still working on it.  I’ll let you know how it turns out.  I’ve been pretty busy lately I suppose, maybe just a bit more than is strictly healthy, but at least most of what’s needed doing has been accomplished.  And now a break for a moment, thanks for the excuse.   What’re you drinking?  I think I’ll try an actual cup of tea.  I’ve been off it for months now, something that happened after the New Year.  I know, it’s pretty strange, knowing me.  I keep trying, but somehow I’m just not interested.  You’re right, maybe tonight.  Yeah, I’ll go put the kettle on.  Be right back.

Well, not that it’s an occasion or anything, but tonight I seem to have dad’s mug.  Still hard to understand that he’s gone.  Nice to be able to think of him with so much love.  I know other people who don’t have anything like that, so I count myself lucky in this as well.  I know I’ve had more knocks than some people, funny that I’ve had to understand and accept that in order to stay healthy.  But I’ve often thought that I’ve had more than my share of good fortune as well.  Good to remember.  And yeah, the tea’s not bad.

Wondering what you’re reading lately.  I’m still working my way through Julia Cameron’s book “Walking in This World”.  I will admit to more than one moment where I thought, ‘yeah, she’s got my number.’  It’s going to take a while to really get it more than just in my head, and like you it’s not the only tool I’ll use by any means, but I’m fairly certain I’m going to get some benefit from some of the insights here.  I guess it’s also good for me to note that a few bits of what she’s suggesting are things I had also considered.  Sometimes I think we don’t give ourselves credit for what we have managed to figure out, we just get on to the next problem that isn’t solved yet or task that is still undone.  Somebody told me once it was a good idea to stop every once in a while and look back at what had been done so far.  I can see the sense in that.  I’ve been on the move for the last couple of years now, but there was a time in my life when I spent an hour first thing in the morning just moving around and sorting things out.  Small chores mostly, wipe the counter, set the laundry, wash a few vegetables, nothing that required heavy thinking, but things that needed doing.  By the time I’d done an hour of that I was usually fairly composed in my thoughts and ready to get to work.  I didn’t do it by design, it just sort of became my habit.  No big deal.  Someone once told me it was a working meditation.  I guess I can’t dispute that.  Interesting to see it mentioned specifically in the book.  She says, “When we take the time to husband the details of our lives, we may encounter a sense of grace.”  She might well be right.  I certainly agree with her point that sometimes the best way to approach a difficult job is by successfully accomplishing a few smaller things.  Seems to build up some kind of momentum.  Lord knows sometimes we can all use a bit more of that.

Speaking of which, I should go grab a little momentum myself.  I know I’m not supposed to be fooling myself that I can work at my top pace, but I’m feeling just a few days behind, and I don’t like that feeling.  So, back to work.  Nice to sit for a minute, though.  Thanks for giving me a reason.  Always good to hear from you.  Write when you get a chance.  And it’s been a while since we had a visit.  Okay, something else to look forward to.  In the meantime I’ll do my best to take care of myself if you do the same.

Be well.

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